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Gone But Not Forgotten...

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It really saddens me when I think of my older brother is not with us anymore. He passed away almost 3 years ago, September 22, 2009 was the date. His birthday is tomorrow and he would have been 30 years old! The pain still very fresh that it feels like someone is squeezing my heart! Although me and him weren't close growing up, still, the pain is unbearable sometimes. I couldn't imagine how my mama feels right now, losing a child at very young age. I feel so bad for my mama. If only I am there beside so I could comfort her. I know it has been almost 3 years but I heard that once you lost a child you never get over it. 

I still feel somewhat guilty because right before the incident, me and him were talking on the phone and were arguing. We hung up the phone still very mad at each other. And then hours later, a call from the Philippines woke me up from my nap and they told me the bad news. I can still remember that time, it's like a bomb blew up on my face...I just couldn't believe it and I thought they were playing terrible joke on me!

Anyway, I guess this is enough for now, I am really getting emotional here...I am hoping and praying that wherever he is, I hope he'll forgive me for what I've said to him. I never got to tell him that I loved him as my brother although we weren't getting along most of the time when we were growing up. I can remember some  of the good memories we had. The jokes and the laughters we shared together and I would never forget that he tried to be a good big brother and I appreciate him for it!

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